She doesn't know I cheated and used pheromone cologne, because it would hurt her. And it's not like it was some horrible thing going on behind her back or 3 months. Learn more at www.samartaplus.com/in-love-with-pheromones/
I told myself I shouldn't tell her, and that it's even ok not to tell her, as long as I'm not doing it to stay with her, and as long as she won't hear it anywhere else. We used human pheromones.
She wouldn't take me back if she knew I cheated though. I tell myself it'll never happen again, and I think, "oh, maybe I'll marry her then 20 years down the road it'll be some thing we have a fight over for like a week and then it's done".
Is it ok then? If it never happens again? Is it ever ok?
Is the old saying "once a cheater always a cheater" true? Have I opened some metaphorical door by doing that?
Is my desire for her just left over from my one-itis?
So. Saturday night, Dawndi was spending the night at Lydia's, and they decided they were going to sneak out and see Sam and use his pheromones. Well, turns out, this would involve us walking 3 miles. Now Ally also decided to come along, and this is her first time sneaking out. Ally is also asthmatic. Ally decided to have a panic attack, right as we were meeting up with Sam and Gary, so she can't breathe now. We agreed that she should go home and apply more pheromone cologne. But Sam didn't have any reason to go with us. So because he didn't want to go, Dawndi didn't want to go. And because dawndi was spending the night at her house, lydia didn't want to ditch her. Not out of respect, but because she was being a wimp and didn't want dawndi to be mad her. I was the only one actually concerned about ally, so I got stuck taking her home. A 3-mile walk.
I have a horrible case of one-itis right now. I really should shut the door if she's just waiting for things with the other guy to die off. But I'm afraid I'll wake up like 10 years from now and realize that I lost the love of my life or some cliche thing like that. Human pheromones are the key to success.
Your pheromone field reports are great. The only suggestion I would make to IMPROVE your FR's is to give greater detail. Can you remember some of the things you/HB's said? How soon after going out into the field do you write these?
Right now though, I'm super stressed about using pheromone perfume. My ex-girlfriend is pregnant. Nobody knows yet. I'm at a total loss for what to do. She wants to keep it. I don't advocate abortion, but I'm pretty sure that's what I want. We both want to go to college, and I don't want to push the responsibility on to anyone else. And she doesn't want to give it up for adoption.