Then I decided to rest for an hour before I go out with real pheromones. And that was one of the longest hours I have ever experienced. I felt very intense anxiety, my mind was racing through all the possible scenarios and was giving me tons of reasons to give up, just to go to bed and forget. In moments like these I am really surprised how strong is my unconscious and how bad it is conditioned to use natural pheromone scents. I tried to experience the fear and locate it physically inside my body, I am not very aware internally, but it was heavy pressure in my chest and it was intensifying and releasing on pulses. When a limiting thought comes to my mind: "You will fail" or something like this, that immediately is creating the physical and emotional reactions of my whole body to use real pheromones. Learn more at www.rainbowlives.org.uk/in-celebration-of-pheromones/
I decided to give myself more motivation, so I told to my brother that if I don't approach 5 women tonight he can have my car and I'm going to use public transportation until I succeed. I also gave him 50 lv and told him to give back 10 each time a approach to link some pleasure to the approach in my mind.
So finally we go out…my pheromones were very powerful!
We played a couple games of bowling while waiting for the clubs to open. I felt like I was getting inside my head again.
We entered the nearest club to use pheromone attractants. It is a small place and was pretty empty, as I walked by a 3 set I held eye contact with HB8 and felt the fear and insecurity again. My brother told me: "Come on just talk to one girl and we will go to another place."
M: Fuck it, I'm going to do it. Be ready with my money (to my brother) (went directly to her, while she was dancing)
M: Hi, my name is Mitko and I wanted to talk to you. (smiled and reached for a handshake)
She refused to take my hand, but she was staring and me and came closer to hear what I am going to say next to my pheromone spray and oil.
M: I think you are cute. (my mind is empty at that point, I have no I idea how to continue)
I ejected and left that place.